Do you ever feel that you are so looking forward to something, but you also don't want that something to come by, because it will be over soon, and life is going to go back to being as boring as ever? Which doesn't make any sense, because why would you not want that delightful something to happen? Or is the whole pleasure in the waiting and not in the actual happening? Someone once told me this - she was planning for an exciting event for days and weeks and just couldn't stop talking about it. Until the day came and she wanted to go back to the beginning. Now that it was here, she could no longer feel any excitement in it. It was going to end soon, whereas when she was preparing for it, it felt so good waiting for the day.
It's almost like a little kid saving up a piece of chocolate because he doesn't want it to get over. Or tasting a tiny portion every hour, until the delicacy is lost.
For instance, I can't wait for my Christmas vacation to come. For those ten days, I'm going to pack my real life away, and instead be with family (both immediate and extended) and have the time of my life. Or as close to the time of my life as possible. I can't wait to go to Disneyland (the happiest place on earth) for the fourth time in two years. I want to be dazzled by the city and lights of Vegas (I'm not into gambling but more into visual effects). Then there's my favorite nieces and charming dog to cuddle around with. No worries about work or groceries or anything, well at least I can delegate them to the older and abler people in the family. And while my eyes get glazed over thinking of these potentially wonderful days, for some reason, I also begin to think about the end of the holidays and trudging back to routine. Sigh...
Yesterday, a friend said in his Facebook page that you know you are having a wonderful time when you don't realize the day passing by. The good times really zip by like the scenery when you are in a speeding car, and before you know it, you are back home and driving to the office, chanting over the sound of the radio DJ in your car, "Five more days to the weekend", "One day down", all the way to "It's the weekend tomorrow"!
I don't always feel this way. I used to, previously, a lot. But then I found a wonderful system that helped me get over it. I call it the Silver Lining technique. That is, I wrap up any unpleasant thing in a silver lining. Worried about the exams tomorrow morning? Think about tomorrow evening, when you'll be partying with your friends and celebrating the end of exams. Is that much-anticipated meeting with your boss giving you sleepless nights? Think about how you can impress him with your numbers and confidence and yada-yada, your corporate life could just be getting a makeover. Worried about that unpleasant call you have to make? Go out soon after the call with your girlfriend to the mall or boyfriend to the bar and have fun for good-times sake. Going for vacation and feeling sad that there is no more vacation for months after this one? Think of your daily routine and the predictability - the books and the blogging and the twitter chats. Or the daily morning coffee. Hmm.. I still want the vacation.
Okay, maybe it isn't that bad. I actually like some control and predictability in my life. Which I've been missing for a while. So, I spend my time thinking of the holidays - doesn't help that everyone is also doing the same thing. At least I am grateful (very very much) that I have a ten-day vacation. That wasn't in the company plans earlier, but now with a mandatory shutdown enforced, I'm glad that I don't have to take vacation from my depleted vacation hours.
What are you doing this Christmas vacation? How much are you looking forward to it?