I started composing this post couple of days ago, but with everything else I was doing during this long weekend, it got sidelined. I am enjoying my five-day weekend and will return to work on Tuesday, thanks to the Independence Day holiday and two vacation days I needed to use up at work. I've been thinking of this long break as the quiet before the storm, because I am expecting the little one to arrive any day now. Actually, I am hoping she will come any day now. I got my last pending work responsibilities settled. (I still have to work until I go into labor.) The baby furniture and items are all ready and waiting for their tenant. Sleeping has been so freaking difficult and painful! At this point, I am ready to be done.
About eight months ago, when I found out I was pregnant, I couldn't wait to get here. There is something very beautiful about a belly bump and the idea of carrying a living breathing being inside a body. And while the whole experience has been wonderful and I wouldn't want to change a thing, the inconveniences have been a steady reminder that this isn't for ever.
- Not being able to eat tuna.
- Not being able to run.
- Not being able to get a sentence in without panting.
- Not being able to go bowling.
- Not being able to work without worrying about the unfinished stuff.
- Not being able to go to India.
- Not being able to plan anything without wondering about how it will impact the little one.
- Not being able to eat without wondering if it's on the NO list.
But on the plus side,
- Feeling the punches and kicks from this little peanut.
- Getting extra attention everywhere (this is both a plus and a minus, but people mean well and it's always nice to have someone walk ahead of me to a meeting room and get things set up for me).
- Getting rid of my tea/coffee habit. Now, I have tea/coffee occasionally, more as a drink to relish than as something to help me stay awake. Of course, the upcoming sleepless nights may change that.
- Having the husband take care of
somemost of the chores. (Okay, he is not going to like this point.)
- Not feeling guilty about wanting to stay put and not do anything because my leg/feet/hips/back/everything hurts.
- Watching her kicking and sucking her thumb on the ultrasound.
- Planning, like all new parents do, about how we want to bring her up and what we should/shouldn't do.
- Looking at all the cute baby items, this time with a personal investment in them. (On the other hand, worrying about consumerism and challenges in bringing up a girl in a world that is still not ready for her.)
- Having a cute little kicking and thrashing bundle to look forward to, after all the struggles.
I am told that the pregnancy will appear to be a piece of cake once we get into the routines of feeding, diapering, and not-much-sleeping. Oh well. As long as there is a cute little bundle to tickle and cuddle with.
This past week, I picked up my knitting needles after having put them down at the beginning of my pregnancy. For some reason, I completely lost my interest in knitting as soon as the hormones started raging. Besides, with a summer baby on the horizon, I didn't have a strong incentive to knit anything. This week though, I started easing back in. I made a Gryffindor lion banner - it's now gracing my Harry Potter box set. I also knitted a cardigan for the little one and I'm in love with how it turned out.
Last night, after finishing the cardigan, I hit a rut. I wanted to read something but nothing is sounding appealing. There's also a part of me wondering what will happen if I went into labor halfway through the book. (I rarely go back to a book I stopped reading for whatever reason.) For that reason, I picked up and abandoned The Book of Speculation for now. A quick read is probably what I want. If fiction, then something plot-oriented. But nothing fluffy or silly. Nonfiction actually sounds sweeter - reading facts or essays is probably what will work best for me right now. If you have any suggestions of books that are quick reads, not too deep or profound, and easy on a distracted or restless mind, throw them my way. If it's a book that helped you when you were busy, definitely let me know about it.
I have been considering taking a Scribd, Oyster, or Kindle Unlimited subscription. That was the plan for a long time - I thought it would be a good idea to have an ebook subscription when I am nursing a kiddo. But now I am not too sure. I rarely deviate towards books when life is busy. I'd rather knit or watch TV, so I'm not sure a subscription would fly, but we'll see. Audiobooks will probably work much better.
Friday, I celebrated my birthday. Ever since we found out that we are having a July baby, I wondered if there is a chance she will arrive as my birthday present. I didn't want her to be born on my birthday, of course, and I'm sure she would prefer to have her own special day. So it was with a lot of relief that I woke up on my birthday with zero indications of going into labor. The husband got me an Audible subscription, which I am super excited about because I am caught up with my Audible library and need to stock up on new titles. He also got me a book embosser that I cannot wait to get my hands on. It's still being delivered, so hopefully, it will be here this week. At work, I had a surprise baby shower and birthday gift - my colleagues had chipped in for a gift card. Honestly, that made my day, especially since I didn't even see it coming.
Today is likely to be a day of chores. I still need to return a couple of library books before the baby comes, pack my hospital bag (I tried delaying this as much as possible), stock the changing table, order swaddling blankets, and buy yarn for some knitting projects. Hopefully, I'll get to some of these today.